as i chill on cloud 13....

At this time in my life I feel that the more I express my feelings the more trouble I get into. Sure its our amemdmant to have freedom of speech but I feel it doesn't apply to me. The world isn't ready for the thoughts I have in my mind or the things I have to say. I'm only 21 but I observe the world around me everyday and I absorb so much. But when I wana express my feelings it seems people always wanna catch feelings and get mad emotional or angry. Althogh in life I never had to struggle I never really did anything the right way. I barely made it through high school, got kicked out the united states air force, lost countless relationships and a majority of this was because of my mouth or my perception of things around me. I just feel that I will always be alone in this universe. I'm not afraid of dying alone anymore. My mind has been atlered so much from the innocence of my childhood I don't even know what's important to me anymore. I'm just drifting through space without any comrades, just me.

One day we will all die,

But until then I will...